A Bit of Honesty

I had a bit of "guilting" by people I know who follow this blog about dropping off the face of the earth but I had some personal "business" to tend to. Now with the benefit of Lexapro (an antidepressant) I am past the tears and trying to find my way "home".

My relationship of 18+ years crumbled. It came as a shock as I thought he was the one and never dreamed that I'd be living in a rental house without furniture other than a chair my daughter loaned me and a bed my mother loaned my daughter. How's that for funny? My youngest grand was very concerned that MeMaw didn't have furniture or even food in her house but she loved the idea that we would "camp" when she visited.

But, I do have all three of my cats and they have adjusted wonderfully. The one I worried about has turned out the most easily adjusted and enjoys lap sitting and attention from your's truly which makes me proud as a peacock.

I am doing treatment for the Hepatitis C...have done shot 3 this week but have had to discontinue the ribavirin as my kidneys are not doing very well at this time. They have decreased my antirejection meds lower than they were before I started rejecting in hopes that my renal function would improve...and it hasn't. Each wednesday when I inject my interferon, I think...OUCH my credit card can't keep handling this $1100 co-pay and then I enjoy my days of shakes, fever and aches. But, it is my POSITIVE in life.

Please keep our Deb in your thoughts as she is having some major life problems with her husband's health right now. I send my love to her as she has a lot on her shoulders.

Thanks for you patience with me and Keep Your Spirits High...robin

Spring & New beginnings........

Spring has finally arrived, with spring typically comes new things, baby animals, trees budding new leaves, flowers erupt from the earth...rain falls instead of snow..and life continues it's circle.

This winter we've seen great trees fall from the load of heavy ice, yet what remains of them buds out in hopes of spring, new beginnings. I see a bit of Robin & I in these strong old trees that refuse to let what comes at them get the better of them.

Much like the passing of the seasons, both Robin & I are facing spring with our lives changing. We take comfort that we have our firendship, our kindred spirits bound both by sharing the journey of a liver transplant & true friendship. It matters not how our individual lives change, our friendship remains one constant we know in our hearts we will always have.

To the followers of this blog, that are missing Robin's blogs..hang in there. I'll post occasionally in a pale attempt to keep this going in hopes that Robin will soon returrn with new found wisdom.

Be~Positive, deb

Missing Robin......by Deb

Upon my initial word from Robin that she had matters to deal with outside of the blog & our girl time, OK she does have a life beyond all of us & granted it's hard to share her, but for a time we will do just that. Still, it was a blow to my system. Since being in touch with her, she does have a lot to deal with. I know this woman & have no doubt she will conqure what life has dealt her & be a wiser stronger lady for it. Don't give up, she'll be back most likely in due time, brighter and bolder than before. Be patient with her, Pray for her & Love her for the wonderful spirit she is. We Love you Robin!

Will not be posting---by robin

Due to circumstances, not necessarily in my control, I will not be blogging. Thank you to those who have followed and responded to posts. Wishing you all the best and as I like to say, Keep your spirits high...robin

Tired and stupid---by robin

Don't know where my head is, perhaps I'm in the midst of a big pity party but I'm tired and frustrated and I'm fed up with being tired, frustrated and fed up.

I am tired of fighting with insurance. I'm tired of being denied drugs to treat my hepatitis that I need in order to prevent the need for a second liver transplant in a few years. I'm tired of this stupid economy and I'm just tired of it all.

I've had the suggestion to hire an attorney and force the insurance company to approve the meds, but I'm thinking that somewhere in my life, this is a Karma payback. So, I'll just sign off today as being tired and feeling stupid.

Keep your spirits high...robin

I'm Talking 'Bout VEGAS---by robin

Whew...now that Deb popped in with a report on her, won't call him her better half so how about her other half, AKA, hubby (I know there were way too many commas there but I kind of like adding them since I am really poor at punctuation), I will take a pass on dogging the medical community for a spell.

Really, I just want to brag a bit that I am heading to VEGAS in the morning. Should be a nice few days with scant worries, other than how my three feline children will be managing without my lap, lovin' and attention. Now don't anyone get worried that the cat children will be neglected as they will be attended to by their human Aunt (my daughter) while I am being a NASCAR redneck in VEGAS. I'll also make the mandatory calls home to talk to the cat children while away and somewhere in my heart I know that I will miss them more than they will miss me.

So, while I am enjoying the thrill of race cars zooming around in a circle, counter clockwise for hours and hours with the occasional spin out to toss an added thrill to the mix (in VEGAS) I will promise to think about each and everyone who isn't there enjoying the redneck excitement of NASCAR with me.

Keep your spirits high, while I'm in VEGAS...robin
sorry, I got carried away with the VEGAS thingy...oh drat, I did it again

What Robin Said........by Deb

Yes, what Robin said & more in regard to my hubby,
What was to be the best possible procedure to remove a prostate, in one day out the next, quick and near painless recovery has turned into 4 days & counting. Friday will be day 5 and I am doubtful he will come home till the weekend at best. The actual surgery supposedly went off with out a hitch & as far as the insecions etc he's not in any pain at all.
As Robin mentioned, the oxygen saturation was his first problem coupled with the hospital not having reserved a room for a scheduled surgery patient we found ourselves in IUC, there he laid & I sat. Yesterday evening we were finally placed on the urology floor, but not before his lack of necessary activity caused him to develope penumonia..that was addressed with increased antibiotics, oxygen, breathing treatments..so we felt things would get better quickly now. But upon arrival (after yet another 2 hour drive) this morning his abdomen was swollen, his internal plumbing isn't working. A KUB X-ray was done this afternoon {results from Dr should be ready in the morning}~hope to catch him! Also hubby now has a tube passed via his nose to the stomach to suction the fluids causing the swelling. Maybe after a night of that, hopeful for a good KUB result he can come home sooner than we think...it's a wait & see world of unknowns for us at this time, don't know what might go wrong next or when he can be discharged??? But as far as we know from all he's had done & his pathology report he is cancer free & we will work through the rest one step/day at a time, find the laughter again & might even talk more about his prostate than my liver for a good long while now.
Be~Positive, Deb